25 January 2008
Psalm 55:22
One starry night at a Young Life camp when I was 16, I accepted Christ in my heart as my lord and savior who died on the cross for my sins. There wasn't anything special about how I did it. Just me laying on a grassy hill staring into the night sky asking Christ into my heart. Throughout the rest of high school and shortly after, I haven't strayed much from my faith. I'm not perfect by any means. No one is. Perfection in humanity walks hand in hand with hypocracy. No, I am definitely not without sin. Over the past couple years I've found myself falling back onto my faith as I watched my father get sicker and eventually die. On the other hand, my life time line is littered with random introductions and run-ins with people that have managed to change my life in some way shape or form. The latest being a woman inspired by me that has pointed me to an organization that just might pay the balance of my tuition for this spring and a friend of mine I haven't seen since the 4th grade. It amazes me how mysterious the Lord works even after proclaiming "He works in mysterious ways". Some how, a lot of things for me have just fallen into place. I've constantly said to myself, "How am I going to make this work" yet somehow they do. My mother sent me an email with a story about a man who's car broke down right near a gas station and he crossed paths with a woman who was just having a shitty time with life at that moment. With no money to get to where she was going, the man paid for her gas and food for her and her family. When he went to get back into his car, his car started right up. God intends for us to be in certain places at certain times, whether we plan it or not. It's all part of his plan. At the end of the email my mother sent me, a bible verse, Psalm 55:22 to be exact, was given:
"Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and He will sustain thee. He will never suffer the righteous to be moved..."
Everyone take care and be safe.
24 January 2008
My Father and My Education
With the EMT class I'm driving across country for in April, I will have earned 30 credits towards my Fire Science Degree. Between this and classes to be taken in the fall, I'll have hopefully earned enough to transfer to University of Alaska at Fairbanks to finish up my degree. I've been looking at UA for the past 2 years because of their Hazardous Materials Program and the campus fire department at which you can be employed while you attend school. The only problem with that is my VA benifits are to soon expire in October of 2010. I don't know. That's a few years from now. Right now, I need to worry about tuition for this year...
23 January 2008
Rt 66 and the Yosemite Drive
22 January 2008
Nothing new...
18 January 2008
Shock to the Senses
16 January 2008
Ups and Downs
Today had its ups, but it also had its downs. Normally, I don't get offended. I mean, it takes a lot of effort to offend me. Somehow, I managed to get pretty offended to the point I had to do a lot of venting to Captain Bragg (more just someone to vent to not necessarily looking for intervention). I'm not going to go into details but I'll list the things that have been lingering in my mind that do offend me:
I get offended when people question the way I do things or the job I do just because it's not what they would do. Going on 6 years of experience, I think I know how to do my job without strife or condescending attitudes
I get offended when people insult my way of life to my face
I get really offended when people shit on the career I've dedicated 6 years of my life and time to. This one especially bothers me since several people on base have done this. I don't know why this bothers me so. I guess the fire service is the one thing I take true pride in and it pisses me the hell off when people who do not understand the work I as well as other firefighters and EMT's do bash our jobs and the way we do things. Today/night I was pissed to the point where I almost got up and walked away from a few good friends in order to keep from getting really pissed and blowing up in the galley. I'm going to leave it at that because I'm still pretty fucking steaming from having to hear shit about the job I love with every inch of my being from a few dozen people over the past week.
Asides from what I just ranted about, life is crazy in town. 10% of the town's population of 1200 people have either the flue or a bad case of the cold (we call it the "crud" down here). Considering I was pretty sick most of the latter half of October and the Beginning of December, I'm hoping that I don't get sick again. Down here, when you test positive for the flue you are quarantined in your room for 2-3 days. So far my roommate has been quarantined, a girl I'm dating down here, 2 of her suite mates have been quarantined, and a whole array of people we associate with on a daily basis have been either quarantined or live with a quarantined roommate or roommates. Hopefully this pandemic will die soon....
14 January 2008
Changes
For those of us already down here, Raytheon opened up internal job announcements for the 2008-2009 summer positions for here and the South Pole which means we'll get first picks of jobs for next year that won't open up externally till April or May. Needless to say, the second I got word of this, I applied for one of the Lieutenant's positions. God has a funny way of making things fall into place. If all goes right (and that is a pretty big "if") the next year should look like this:
- Leave here and vacation for 2 weeks
- Go on unemployment and work on an on-call basis for Virginia Deparment of Forestry till April
- Travel to Yosemite for Wilderness EMT
- Travel to wherever in May to start working the wildland fire season
- Go off employment and rack in the overtime when the fire season gets in full swing
- Come back home for a week or two before heading back to Antarctica
- Start cycle all over again
Life is what you make it. You can say your life sucks and wallow in self-pity thiking that you can't do anything about it, or you can get off your ass and try to change the way things are going. If you try hard enough, if you set your mind to it, life will find a way. Your dreams will find a way. If my plans don't work out, there will always be something else to guide me along to keep my head up...
13 January 2008
A Beautiful Day Out at Station 2
Life in Town and the Next Couple of Months
I've been working on my NOLS application and scholarship for the past couple of days and I came to find out that my Veterans Affairs educational assistance does not apply for certain NOLS classes with the Wilderness EMT class I'm looking to take being one of them. What does this mean? It means, if I don't get this scholarship, I'll have to fork over $2950. If I do get the full scholarship (full meaning the full amount I had asked for) then I'll only have to fork over $1000. Still that's a lot of money. The closer I get to march, the more detailed and concrete my plans are turning out to be. I'm continuously becoming amazed at the benefits this job offers whether they're on purpose or not. One of the great things about this job is that since most of us down here are working a seasonal contract and this branch of Raytheon is based out of Virginia, everyone that will be filing for unemployment has to file through Virginia. Me being from Virginia means that Raytheon will take care of most of the paperwork for me so that I'll be receiving unemployment checks the second I get home until I start working May 15th. If I can find a decent job I'd enjoy that pays more than whatever it is I'll be getting from unemployment, I'll gladly take it. If not, I'm going to spend a lot of time in the Monongahela National Forest or the Fire Department. I'm also hoping for a busy fire season in Virginia. Maybe I can get deployed on a few fires within the state to get some extra money. So far, everything is looking good for the next couple of months. God willing, it will stay that way when those times come...
10 January 2008
The Future
07 January 2008
Wanderlust and Post Antarctic Plans
A few things have come up while trying to plan for the next few months. Because I wasn't able to get my Idaho EMT (Idaho EMT = National Registry EMT = Easier dealing with my expired VA EMT) and my Virginia EMT expired before I left for the ice, I've opted to take Wilderness EMT through the National Outdoor Leadership School's Wilderness Medical Institute before the beginning of the fire season which I think is a really cool idea. I've been meaning to take this class for years and what better way to do it than to drive to Yosemite Valley in California, live out of my truck, and climbing and fly-fish when I'm not in class or studying. After the class is done, I'll drive to Cedar City and spend the rest of the 10-12 days before the beginning of the season climbing around Zion. The only down fall of this all is I have to cut my trip short to the South Island of New Zealand by two weeks. To be honest, with everything that has happened in the past few months back home, I really can't wait to see my family. We'll see what happens...
06 January 2008
Redeployment
02 January 2008
New Years
Going to the going away party hit me in the sense that the season is almost over. People are getting ready to wrap it up before the end of the summer hits. When you think about it, as fast as this summer has gone for me, I have only 6 to 7 weeks left down here. Life and the normal pace of things are starting to change down here as well. Soon the icebreakers will come and we'll start seeing a lot of cargo ships and fueling tankers down here. Employee evals are being prepared by supervisors, talks about contracts for next year are being held, times are definlitey changing down here.
As for afterwards, I'm planning on hanging out in Queenstown and Christchurch, NZ for a little bit only to head to the West Coast of the South Island to do a little climbing with some friends from down here. Hopefully, I'll be back stateside in mid-march.
On a sad and final note, Lieutenant Alex John Keepers of Loudoun County Fire & Rescue Services (the county in which I volunteer) was killed in an auto accident Monday morning while on his way to work. Please keep him and his family in your hearts and prayers as well as all of us firefighters. We're not as invincible as people perceive...
27 December 2007
Screwy Life
It's funny how screwy life can be down here. This week has been very snowy….with the exception of Christmas of course. As a matter of fact, this entire season has been pretty snowy. For the driest continent on the planet, it has sure snowed its ass off on many an occasion. Tonight is no different. I think it's pretty safe to say that I lose absolutely all concept of time when I'm sleeping…especially in my dorm room. Since I don't have windows or any other source of natural or ambient light, when the lights are off, they're off which I actually prefer when I'm sleeping. It's pretty nice to have a completely pitch black room when I'm trying to sleep. The only problem is that I don't sleep with my watch and I have absolutely no way of telling what time it is when I'm underneath the covers. A couple weeks ago I woke up thinking it was 1100 on one of my days off when it in fact turned out to be 0430. The same thing goes with the firehouse. What's even crazier about the firehouse is the fact that even though the windows are covered, they still let enough light in to fill the entire room. With very little change in the rise and setting of the sun, the light places tricks with your mind as easily as the dark. It's not necessarily a bad thing this lack of time perception, but it's something I'm finding really hard to get use to. Gossip down here spreads as fast as a wildfire. I've ran calls where people in no way, shape, or form affiliated with the fire department or the affected have either asked me some off the wall question regarding the call or given me some crazy detail that was assumed to be secret….sometimes as soon as 5 minutes after we've completed the call.
With talks of re-deployment, mail deadlines, Christchurch, and contract renewals, the end of the season is drawing near. I plan on signing my contract for next year at the next opportunity. With all that is happening with my life at home and in Boise, I'd be a fool not to work a job where I managed to go 6 weeks without spending a single dime. I get to travel to New Zealand and Antarctica; I get free room and board, free food, and a decent paycheck without having to pay for a whole lot. One thing I've found myself doing after my pops died was learning from the examples he had set for me; one of them being how to plan for my financial future. Now I'm not one whose life revolves around money but it definitely couldn't hurt to have as much money saved up as humanly possible. It sounds weird to plan for my retirement at 22 but to be honest I can't think of a better time to do so. Despite ups, downs, and drastic changes in my life, I still manage to dream and so far I've managed to act out some of the most far-fetched dreams I've conjured up and I definitely don't think I'm done either.
23 December 2007
Craziness and Christmas to Come
Craziness has erupted around town. The shift after the 17th (my last post), we tested over 2,000 feet of hose, racked at least 1,000, and dealt with a few other things before having to deal with a pain in the ass medevac I had to manage for a few hours. Just like when I became a lieutenant back in Ashburn, I got to deal with a bunch of crazy things within my first week or so of office. We had a medevac where we had to transfer a patient from the hospital to the helicopter pad so that he could be taken to Pegasus Airfield. What I thought would be a simple task turned out to be a logistical nightmare trying to communicate between medical, the National Science Foundation (from whom I had to get approval to fly the patient), and Helo Ops (who controls all helicopter missions and operations). Back home (Loudoun County), if we wanted to medevac a patient to a more advanced hospital, all we had to do was call dispatch, have them start a helicopter our way, then call the hospital to get permission to transfer patient care to the helicopter crew. Down here, the complexity of medevacing a patient is damn near 3 fold. The request for Medevacs comes from the hospital. They call us to pick up the patient and a flight nurse and we transfer the patient from the hospital to the airfield. If they leave on a C-130, we transfer them to Willy Field which is about 10 miles away. If they leave on a C-17, we transfer them out to Pegasus Field which is about 17 miles away. Either of which is not an easy transport because of road conditions. If the patient is really emergent (as was our patient from the 19th), then they can be flown via helicopter to one of the airfields. When that happens, we have to coordinate between Medical, Helo Ops, and the NSF….all of which I had to deal with by myself since I was the sole lieutenant working Friday. Thank god that was the last call we had to deal with. Including today, the past 4 or 5 shifts have been pretty busy. It's weird because we've been so using to trying to find something to stay busy with.
With Christmas being in a few days, I've found myself thinking more and more about Jesus and trying to disassociate myself from things proclaimed as festive and Christmas. Now, I haven't preached to people about the true meaning (or at least in my opinion) of Christmas because I don't feel it's my right to tell people how to celebrate their holidays. I've found myself listening to a lot of music that reminds me of our Lord as well as Christian faith in general. I've been listening to a lot of folk and old-time bluegrass. I've been praying more. I more at ease and a lot more peaceful. This time of year, I'm truly happy. We had our town Christmas party today. Normally, I don't like being in large crowds like tonight. Seeing a certain someone however helped change my mood a bit. As I sit here though, 2 AM on Christmas Eve, I've retreated to my newly found peaceful state of mind. The years been good and bad. I quit working for Fauquier County (good thing), I started working for Virginia Department of Forestry, I moved away from home for the first time and worked a wildland season out west, I managed to land a job working in Antarctica, and I even got promoted within said job. This year however, I lost one of the closest relatives I've ever had in my life at what couldn't have been a more seemingly worst time. But that hasn't brought me down. I gain people in my life, I lose people in my life. I've met hundreds of people this year. I bridged new connections , new relationships in life. I've rekindled old ones. My relationship with my mother is a lot better since we realize how much we miss each other. Everything that has happened to me, every where I've been, where I'm at now, and where I will be in the new year to come, I owe it all to Jesus. Such an epiphany couldn't have come at a better time of the year.
17 December 2007
Christmas and Crazyness
Today was probably one of the busiest days I've had to deal with here within the AFD. With Monday comes weekly truck checks which are incredibly thorough and usually take a couple hours. On top of checking out several vehicles, checking out a hydrant and driving around for a bit. We managed to stay pretty busy. Lunch went by fast and before we knew it, we were outside testing 1'000 feet of 3" hose, something that I thought I'd be able to skip out of by coming down here. I can't complain too much though. Ashburn had almost 8 miles of hose to test versus the less than 2 here at the Antarctic Fire Department. Our hose testing was interrupted by an in-flight emergency involving a C-130 with stuck flaps landing at Pegasus runways. After mobilizing people for that we went back to hose testing only to run into problems with our water supply. Finally we finished testing the hose we wanted to even thought we were 10 minutes late for our blasting/demolition stand-by. 1630 came around and told everyone to chillax before dinner. As we're walking out the door for dinner, Station 2 gets a call for a man with a severe emergency medical issue. Because of the condition of the road going from Willy Field to McMurdo (the road is closed to light vehicles), our ambulance here had to rendezvous with the ambulance from station 2 on the transition. Shortly after the patient transfer between the two ambulances, ambulance 1's tranny crapped out on the crew only to have the other ambulance switch the equipment and patient back into their original ambulance where they managed to make it through the treacherous melt pools of the transition. I'm tired....but I'm happy. I love my job and the people I work with. I love this unique environment. I love it all. Hopefully I'll love where ever I work in the summer as much as I do down here...
12 December 2007
Lieutenant and Life at McMurdo
09 December 2007
Lt Position, Wildland Firefighting, and Connections
I interviewed for the Lieutenant's position within our department on Friday. To be honest, I really have no idea how the interview went despite how many people have asked me. I think it went well, but then again, I don't know if my Chief or Captain who conducted the interview thought the same way. For some reason, we're waiting until tomorrow to find out who the two new lieutenants' will be. At this point, I've sorta lost focus on the entire thing. A week ago, the National Park Service and the Bureau of Land Management began posting job announcements for positions within their respective organizations. So far I've applied to:
Zion National Park
Glacier National Park
Grand Tetons National Park
Mesa Verde National Park
Yosemite National Park
Redwood National Park
Santa Monica Mountains National Recreation Area
Point Reyes National Seashore
Mt Ranier Natonal Park
Denali National Park
Yukon-Charley Rivers National Park
Colorado BLM
Utah BLM
Idaho BLM
Wyoming BLM
It's weird how some supervisors have responded to the emails I've sent out. Some were pretty happy that I emailed them. Others were complete assholes. While applying for these jobs and attempting to contact the supervisors, I've come to find out how many people I work with and know that have worked out west…especially for the Park Service. There are two guys within the fire department alone that have worked for the park service as firefighters. I've met a few other people outside of the fire department that have worked as wildland firefighters. Just today, I was talking to one of the new firefighters that just came in last week who worked for the forest service as well as for SAR organizations in Colorado and California. On top of that he's a pretty experienced climber. If there's one thing I love about this place it's the connections you make with the people you work and party with.
02 December 2007
Change in the Firehouse
Another day at the firehouse. During our morning shift change meeting, we came to find out that our (B-Shift) Captain landed a job working for the City of Omaha, NE as a firefighter and that he's leaving tomorrow. We're actually really excited for him but sad to see him go…especially so suddenly. With him leaving, however, that leaves a captain's position open for the taking. With that being said, it was announced that interviews for the lieutenant's position will take place on Thursday and that they'll now be hiring two lieutenants instead of just one on account of the department will be looking to promote one of the current lieutenants to captain. For now, the captain on A-Shift will go to a day schedule and over see both the shifts during normal business hours. So a lot of change will be happening within the fire department here very shortly.
30 November 2007
Willy Field and Wildland Applications
I woke up this morning around 0530 for some reason. Not being able to fall asleep, I got up, got dressed and walked down to the computer lab for a bit. Low and behold, when I logged onto USAJOBS.com, I found that everyone and there mother under the BLM, NPS, and USFS was hiring....including Zion National Park! Through out the day, I've been applying to almost 20 some positions in Utah, Wyoming, Idaho, Montana, and Alaska. I'm looking to apply to Yellowstone National Park and Grand Canyon National Parks when they open up but for now, I've applied to most of the positions and locations that I had been wishing to. I guess that's the most exciting thing in my life right now.